There’s something good, something healthy, about doing one of these end of the year type posts, that i hadn’t really thought of until i started working on it over Christmas in Denmark. Even though it’s a lot of work and turns out messy and what’s the point even, and ugh, it forces you to really …
Tag: Lucifer
May 2004 – September 2021
From the iPhone journal: The passage of time feels insulting. I want so badly for it to go backwards, but it keeps rushing forward. Away from you.Away from the time you were here, existing physically.It’s almost as if it doesn’t even give a damn about how much I need to be with you again. I don’t …
With every heartbeat
Oh hello and welcome back! To the first blog post at least partially written, but the second one posted, in WordPress. Transitioning to this new format was very weird for me. But, good weird? A new beginning for my untitled blog!You’ll noticed that captions are below the pictures now, like they have been on every …
Clueless
I don’t know what feels more sad. Posting pictures from December, a month i’ve spent being stressed out and in mourning, or posting pictures from before, and remembering. I’ve said it before, but when it comes to breakups, everything gets divided into before’s and after’s. December was a daze for me. Once i stopped crying, …
The next adventure
As i’m writing this i’m in bed drinking coffee, but next to me on the floor is an open, still unpacked suitcase and a boarding pass with today’s date on it. What i’m trying to say, is that this will be a quick one. A couple of months ago we were sitting outside of a …
Home in analog, the sequel
The other day when i was posting about my article in Tätowier Magazin, i noticed that this post was among my three most read posts recently. It’s an old post with analog pictures from my apartment only a few months after i moved in, and as i was looking at the photos, i was struck …
Seestern
A beautiful summer day in Berlin a few weeks ago, before the weather got a little too grey and autumn-like. A Saturday. I was up early, and he had barely slept, and we decided to go to the lake. Me, because i love swimming and going on adventures. Him, mostly because he wanted to make …
Converge
It says a lot about my life that i can only find time to sit down and write when i’m on holiday. So i’m in Denmark. I started out in Copenhagen, coming in late at night, Friday after work. A night on Martin’s couch, and breakfast with Mille. Then a train to the countryside, with …
El alma y el cuerpo
Sooo… that happened. Another headstone for the Berlin Relationship Cemetery. I’m ok, though. Past the point of hoping, that maybe… but not past the point of missing him, and thinking of those last two hours we spent together. About how i had wanted to freeze that moment in time and play it on a loop, …
Change up
There’s a smell in my neighborhood. A constant smell that i haven’t yet been able to identify. If my German was better, i’d ask an old local person, but for now, my neighborhood has an unidentified smell. And it’s not a pleasant one. It’s not a poop smell though, like in much of the city. …