From the iPhone journal: Mexico was a year ago. A year ago today i was there, and in a way, i’m still there. Stuck in a parallel universe, i can watch myself, i can relive my experiences and repeat my mistakes. It’s not always like this. On a regular day i can forget. On a …
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Whitechapel
If someone were to ask me what 2015 has been like so far, i wouldn’t know what to say yet. So much happened, so many conflicting feelings, so much joy and so much confusion. Like, how do you even begin to describe something that big? It’s like describing the ocean or the person you love. …
J’étais censé t’aimer, mais j’ai vu l’averse
I just did that thing where i wrote a long post, read it a few times, then decided that i wasn’t feeling it. Not today anyway. Crap. But at least i have new analog photos to post! Not that this film was pure gold, far from it. But that sunflower picture isn’t too bad. From …
Life in the now
It’s October 1st and i woke up with a strange urge to start fresh, start over. To somehow make this month different than the last one. I normally don’t even notice what today’s date is unless it’s someone’s birthday, but today feels different. I’m not sure how or why, but i think it started yesterday. …
Stories from the past, adventures in the present
I don’t know the exact moment my severe anxiety disorder disappeared, but i think it may have been the morning of January 15th last year. I’d gotten up early in the morning for an appointment at a hospital i’d never been to before, and i was going there alone. It was only a few weeks …
Pumpkin spice shut the hell up
It’s Sunday, and i don’t have much to write, but i got photos back from the lab on Thursday, and since it’s a rainy day today, i felt like posting a few sunny ones. I’m still in denial about summer having ended, and every time someone talks about autumn being their faaaavorite season, and how …
That girl
Ok, so i didn’t post the next day, but almost! Still playing catch-up, so none of this is particularly current, and all of it is random, but that’s ok. I’ll get to more present day events eventually. Probably. From the iPhone journal, written after talking to some of my best friends about some of our …
Another self
Is it self promotion or self sabotage if i post something that a lot of people are supposed to see, on a Friday afternoon, a day famous for its low internet activity? Yeah ok, so that’s a typical me-move, but i just got home to Berlin after a week in Denmark, and if i don’t …
Backup dreams
From the iPhone journal, a while back: This morning i had a weird realization. I’m at a place in my life where i’ve already had everything most of the people around me are working towards. The marriage, the house, the business. A car. Not the babies, obviously, but the possibility of family nonetheless. Stability. Had …
The pain now is part of the happiness then. That’s the deal…
We took our best friend to the airport this morning. By we i mean myself and my roommate Wendy, and our best friend would be the other Wendy. It’s ok if you’re confused by that. Most people are. It was early. We got up at 4 am. We held hands all the way to Tegel, …