Mallorca 2019.I don’t remember the how or why, but I guess I had some time off and booked a short vacation, no more than an extended weekend, for myself.I enjoyed my solitude back then as I do now, but I do remember feeling somewhat lonely on this trip. Sitting in a bar texting my girlfriends, …
Tag: Flora the explorer
Saudade
From the future self journal: “It’s still early morning at the house and i can tell it’s gonna be a warm day. It already is. It’s spring. I can hear the birds singing and there’s a lazy gray cat on my bed. She hears them too. Soft light is flooding the bed from the large …
Dumb cookie
The things about gossip is that it eventually gets back to the person being gossiped about. I’ve been trying to keep the specific circumstances behind my breakup private, telling only a few of my closest friends what happened. I haven’t blogged about it in detail, i even quit twitter because i didn’t want to accidentally overshare …
So… what are you gonna do now?
Months ago i wrote a thing on my phone about topics that made me uncomfortable when brought up, especially by strangers. I guess i was getting the same questions a lot at the time, and i needed to vent. The same topics aren’t necessarily bothering me now. Actually not much does, it’s one of the …
Pre-dystopia
The world is a very different place than it was when i wrote my last post, isn’t it? We all woke up in a new reality the day after the election. I had tried to stay awake and failed, but i could hear the news anchors talking as i fell in and out of sleep, …
Postcards from the recent past
Today i woke up early, feeling less hungover than i should have considering my Saturday night, so i started editing photos on my old Dell laptop, that only ever comes out of retirement for that very purpose. I then did a 30 minute workout with my flatmate, who also had a late night. Then i …
The measure of all things
From the iPhone journal: Kindness It’s the first thing to go in a relationship that’s in trouble. Once you stop doing the little things just because doing something for each other brings you joy, once you start counting favors, keeping track, that’s when you know. Sometimes you don’t see it until it’s too late, and …
Looking too closely
Writing is something i’ve always done. It’s something i’ve always had the need to do. And it has always been the most important part of any healing process for me. Be it death or breakups… or just the fucking burden of life in general; when i need to fix something within myself, make sense of the world, …
Vienna
From the iPhone journal: I no longer have an emotional anchor. A person to mirror me, to justify my existence and individuality. This is being alone. It’s weird and even shocking to me sometimes, being truly alone. Not even having family nearby. But it’s not all bad, i guess. Anchors can drag you down. Here …
About New York
All travels are different, and i think that all the trips you go on are supposed to teach you something, about the world or yourself. I don’t really know yet exactly what New York taught me. Throughout the trip, i felt oddly disconnected with myself. Almost a sense of unreality, or one long out of …