To be honest, i’ve never been much of a girl’s girl.
As a kid, sure, but in my adult life, i always wanted to be, but instead i always had boyfriends, and boys that were friends, and after a while, i guess i started to feel not 100% comfortable with other women, save for maybe a few trusted longtime girlfriends.
I mean, i like clothes and shoes and girly shit as much as the next person, but the female group dynamic always felt awkward and sometimes too competitive to me.
Mostly awkward, though, and the awkwardness was mostly provided by me, i’m sure!
For years i secretly envied other women’s close circles, and i often felt alone in a sea of girlfriend-couples when i was out shopping or walking around Copenhagen by myself.
And of course there’s the fact that i was also married to a dude, who was my best friends for so many years, and for a long time i didn’t feel like really needed other friendships than that one.
Obviously, that’s all changed now!
And actually for the better.
When news of the breakup got out, i got such overwhelming support from other women, both on the internet and in real life.
On the internet, they posted sweet and supportive comments, sent me messages telling me how good i was doing, and just generally cheered me on.
The fact that most of my posts were all of a sudden half naked selfies didn’t even seem to bother anyone!
I’ve always had awesome internet friends, so i wasn’t surprised that they were being sweet and supportive, but the amount of people who cared, and the sincerity of their emails and comments were still overwhelming.
But the real surprise for me was the friends i’ve made in real life since becoming single.
And the most surprising thing was probably that these friends, these awesome people, were already in my life to begin with, i’d just been too caught up in couple-life to fully notice.
The friends i’ve made after i became more open and aware, which i sooo wasn’t before, they make time to hang out with me, even though
they’re all in happy relationships.
And even though they would maybe sometimes rather
be on the couch with their man, they still say yes pretty much whenever i wanna go
shopping, or have a craft night, or go for cocktails. Or whatever other stupid idea i throw out there!
As women we often get told that we’re bitchy and catty, and that we’re each others worst enemies, and i’d just like to take a moment to call bullshit.
No friendships are drama free, especially not if you’re a big group of friends that all know each other, but i often see more boy shit than girl shit amongst my friends.
Or at least just as much!
The girlfriends i’ve made since opening up to getting to know people are fucking awesome, smart, creative, and just as offensive and hilarious as any guy friend i’ve ever had, and even though they’re not all gonna last forever, cause hey, nothing does, i’m still super grateful for having them at all.
Sorry for the rant, but i guess with this post i’m just trying to say thanks?
Going from being half of the most twosomest of twosomes, to being on my own for the first time in many years, would have been really hard without this rather huge support system i never even knew i had!
At another cool bar with awesome ladies the very next day
But most nights it’s just me and this guy on the couch… we finally gave up on Breaking Bad (sorry friends who love it!) and started Community
Oh yeah, and on Monday i went from this….
….. to this!
I have another appointment in 6 weeks where i’ll hopefully go even lighter….
i’m expecting at least a 20% increase in fun being had!
My weight loss has been kind of stagnant recently, probably because i’ve had to eat out more?
But i’m still working out every morning, and slowly getting super strong, as i’m sure you can tell!
realized how quickly i used to rebound my way into a new relationship, and how super fucking
unhealthy that was.
remember the last time i was single (well, barely, cause that was a
long ass time ago!) i was basically miserable and couldn’t wait to find a
man to validate my existence.
just getting up in the morning, doing my workouts, making myself
breakfast, or hanging out in my apartment by myself at night, just regular
normal stuff for other people, feels all special to me, because i’ve
never actually done it before without the sadness.
Funny, I am the same way with women, but I too am now single, and you're right, female companionship brings with it a strength. Wishing you the best from New york City. ๐
Hi Amalie,
I'm so glad that you're gettin' better everyday and enjoying this new phase of your life ๐
plus, you look fucking great! keep going!
hugs
Bea
Hi Amalie. Hope to be able to catch you while you are in Tokyo (when was it again?). I will be there for a couple of weeks from April 10 (I think/hope), lets do a Mr Donut. Also, I was planning to pop over to the Ink rats to get some stuff done.
Matt the nerd
Dude!! I am here right now, let's definitely do Mr. Donut!
I am staying in Asagaya, so not far from the usual one.
Email me?
Yay, this trip just keeps getting better!
Girls are strange but so are boys. I never had many friends because I felt I didn't need them.
/Avy
http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com
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This post is great! I never had girl friends either. I've always been a little intimidated by a lot of girls. I don't know if it's bad but sometimes I wish I was single so I could have more time to have "girls nights out" and stuff like that. But I probably wouldn't do these things if I was single either. I'd just end up being the creepy, evil old lady with too many (mean, yappy) dogs haha
It's great that you're so positive about the changes in your life. It's really, really inspiring to read! I need to start eating healthier and excercise more again too.
The blonde looks great. And the short bangs too!
p.s.
Did you get my package yet? I sent it out about 2 weeks ago. Chose the cheapest option :X hope that wasn't a mistake and they lost it.
Girls rule!!! ๐ Such a joy to read this one! It takes me back, and really the living alone thing is awesome and i miss it, so enjoy it as much as possible (wich it sounds like you are doing)
And damm girl you look great, loving the blond, and it is true blonds have more fun, take it from a girl who is addicted to bleach ๐
Love you Amalie! Lady friends are awesome. And I love the blonde! It really is more fun I swear. Xoxoxo!!!
Love you Alice, you're the best!
The only way life could be more awesome right now would be if i could hang out with you in Japan!
Wow, great post. I've always had a bit of a love/hate relationship with my girlfriends (mostly love). I've recently found some awesome women who have become great friends and the thing we have in common are our kids (I used to hate that whole "mother's group" thing, but I think I was just being narrow minded). I love that Europe is now getting into Spring. We'll be in Frankfurt next week (crap crap decision – we should have just flown straight to Munich or gone to Berlin again). Oh well. Looking forward to being on your side of the world again.
Thank you!
I guess it doesn't matter what you bond over, as long as you find some people who make you laugh and feel good, right?
Have fun in Frankfurt! I'm sure it'll be nice even though it's… Frankfurt ๐
(Third attempt at commenting! Stupid internet/ipad/blogger!)
Staying single and living alone is one of the best things I've ever done. It meant that when I met Gareth, I was totally ready for a relationship. Without getting all 'you have to learn to love yourself' (cos yuck!), it really is a great experience spending time alone. As much as I love my husband and daughter, I do miss living alone sometimes. You only have yourself to please and if eating garlic bread and playing World of Warcraft at 3 am is what pleases you, you can do it ๐
I'm super pleased you are enjoying this new chapter in your life. It's inspiring ๐
I'm going to be super lame here and I don't care – you go, girl! ๐
I will take that you go girl, haha!
Thanks so much for being so supportive, it obviously means a lot to me ๐
And i've been eating all the garlic, because why the hell not! Living alone really is fun, even though it's a bit commune style at the moment with an ex-husband downstairs and a bff in the meditation room, and tattooers everywhere!
This was delightful. Love you lady!
Love you too! ๐